something intense.

Dear Germany

Dear Germany,

How are ya? you may find strange for me to write you, given our history together. Although it may come pretty straight forward to you, the time has come to talk about something. You have been kicking my ass in my love life for quite some time now and I would like you to stop. The reason why you are doing this to me still eludes me, nevertheless, I came here to offer you a truce.

In case you were wondering what on earth am I talking about (because I understand that you, being a successful country do not keep count of how many appalling victories you cast upon others) allow me to elaborate: you have broken my heart several times, by sending people from your country to this very specific endeavor. If you don't believe me, take a look at my background history with you:

July 2002 - July 2003: I went abroad for my high school senior year to Austria and was constantly bullied by german people just for living in Austria. A cute german guy mocked me. I wanted to date that guy, but he bullied me and I never could.

January 2011- After a year abroad in China, My exboyfriend "Maicol" cheated on me and then later move to Germany with a german girl named Sarah.

November 2014 - My best friend moved in with a german guy named Phillip. This one was not that big of a hard blow, because lucky enough, I like this guy. But still counts for statistic purposes. (He also mocked me for living in Austria in my teenage years).

October 2015 - I met a cute guy from work whom I do not stand a chance with cuz he  is currently dating a super hot girl named Celine, who is from ...YOU GUESSED IT!!! Germany. Besides, I also like her too, so you got me bedazzled with your people Germany, while kicking me in the butt with my luck on love.

and Last but not least,  April 2016 - I met this other cute guy, Alex who we end up breaking up because his exgirlfriend is coming back to the country and he wanted to see her again.
guess from which country is she from: Germany.

So, Germany, I plea to you for your compassion.

I plea to look at my poorly amended heart, and what is left of it, and leave it be, so it can find a decent human being to hang out until I drop dead... or at least, to hook up with that does not later dumps me in exchange of your magnificent people. (or giving me the option to hang around in case he/she changes his mind).

I plea you to also take a look at the picture included,  and enjoy the sight of my crying by the shower in fetal pose,  hoping that this is the trophy you wanted all along.. and can proceed to a different hobby such as breaking someone else's life.

I recognize that you, as a first world country may be less challenged economically and socially than my country (Mexico) but please remember that we can be nice as well...with all our hilarious slang...and our delicious food. Also we have warm summers, and you are always welcome to our beautiful beaches....as long as you don´t steal boyfriends. Come to think about it, maybe that is the reason why you come steal them anyways.

In return of your incredibly compassionate heart, I promise I will buy an Audi one day
and perfectionate my german in the upcoming years. I will also never mock your lederhosen again and will attend at least one Oktoberfest (hoping with every fiber of my being to not run into my exes).

I leave you now with the following quote to reflect upon: “No one has ever become poor by giving.”
― Anne Frank, diary of Anne Frank: the play

Sincerely yours,
Falkirk.

P.S. I know that the Anne Frank quote was a low blow, but bear with me here. Im using all the resources I can. Also, please don't hate me more cuz I'm half french.

to sad to say.

doblaba con cuidado.
existía con cuidado.
todo puede romperse....mejor en cualkier momento.
hay que caminar de puntitas.
hay que susurrar y comer callados.
dormir. comer.
corre. grita. empuja.
pero callado.

The curse of consistency

Sometimes when I'm writing I will trace a letter slightly different. It may be a small squiggle at the end, the shape would end a bit shorter or I might slant it just a tad. In some cases I would really like the result. As a stand-alone letter it looks gorgeous; elegant in itself. Homogenization is, however, the bane of every aggregation. If it does not work with the whole it just can’t be incorporated. Thankfully, more often than not, I’m able to integrate it in one of my handwriting styles, be it the slanted-cursive, the serif-script or any other. But every once in a while it just won’t fit anywhere. To develop a new style around a single letter is certainly possible although realistically impractical.


It is in those occasions that my soul gets torn to shambles. To see such a beauty, such potential being pushed aside and forgotten is disheartening. It makes me extrapolate the circumstance to larger real-world events. How many experiences do we miss because they do not conform to the image we have formed of ourselves? Even worse, how many not-really-perfect “letters” do we embrace in our life alphabets only because they fit with the rest? I suggest you give this thought a minute.

Metodos cuantitativos vs metodos cualitativos

soy un pensamiento perfectamente logico e inductivo.
soy racional
trabajar trabaja trabajar.
rutina.
dentro de mi crece algo.
sale por los poros y se adentra por las calles, penetra las membranas del aire
y al aire le duele.
le duele pensar.
soy un pensamiento subjetivo, acerca de pensamientos subjetivos.

mi psicolog trata de encontrar patrones en mi
pero esta hecho de una sociedad, donde todos copian a todos.
tratan de evaluar que es lo que otros harian en la misma situacion que yo
soy un juicio convencional.

la presion es externa
reduce mi incertidumbre
la reduce la reduce
volar volar volar.
pensando.

mantengamos el efecto
reduzcamos los riesgos.
balance.....

JUMP.

Ahora le vengo manejando lo que viene siendo
oleada de adrenalina
adranalina si
adrenalina no.
vengase conmigo. venga deme la mano
saltemos al infinito
al vacio de desfibrilacion.
donde la emocion se convierte en electricidad
y el miedo se confunde con amor.

ready? lets go!!!

TE PROHIBO QUE SALGAS CON "EL NARANJAS"

los cholos de hoy en día quieren todo bien peladas,
y pues no.

Subele a la musica satánica.

VIVE

en el acronimo de tu imaginación.

VIVE gato!!!

y resuena en las axilas de la sabiduría.

VIVE INVISIBLE EN LAS PAREDES DEL GRIS CONCRETO.

Y LUEGO

vuelve a morir.

triciclo.

DCotP-Deco

El fin del gato

Chuck Norris tomó su tarro y lo azotó contra la barra.

¿Por que?

Por que en DCotP siempre suceden cosas extrañas sin explicación alguna.

Fue al patio, levantó al gato y lo puso en el contenedor de la basura. Jamás se le volvió a ver.

True Story.

Falkirk is a Chick!? (segundo intento)

Falkirk is a Chick!?

I can haz vectors 2

combo breaker!

Je te D`jo (vol.2)

We are no longer coming.
Im already walking
I wont sooth you pain
you`ll be waiting in vain
I`ve got nothing for you to gain.

Im already part of the flow
Im not waiting anymore.

watch for the bursting in flames couple.
they are so....hypnotizing.

las ideas son como el dengue

seremos eso
un río de energía
brillante
que se desliza
que no tiene fin
solo se extiende
y permanece
demasiada hermosura
¿tu crees?
la creación divina
si creo
sip
que hermosura
energía que se transforme

a un paisaje natural ¿le ves algún desperfecto?
¿o algo malo?
tal vez la energia no piense
solo fluya
y dé vida
tal vez estemos aprisionados en este mundo
que nos vuelve locos
pero imagina,
poder viajar
así
hacia otros mundos
cada uno diferente
cuando uno muere tal vez es porque debe ir a otro lugar
y tal vez ya no quiera pensar
solo fluir y viajar

mm a mi me gustaría poder viajar así
even without dying
jejeje
ruido blanco
luz negra
te suena algo asi como que no podrias imaginar, pero existe
¿has pensado algun estado de tu ser
que pudiera ser algo asi?
instinto, razón
espíritu
que sería no la contraparte
pero algo que no esté en eso
no un deseo
ni una plegaria
o algun silencio
como fluir en otra frecuencia


algo que nunca hayas pensado
o mas bien que no se piense pero que exista
en tí
para que puedas fluir
regularmente ¿que piensa uno durante el dia?
trabajo, dinero , etc
estamos en esa frecuencias
¿que otra frecuencias podrías sintonizar?
así puedes viajar
no busques alguna razón
no alimentes tu ego
no lo hagas por sobrevivir
o por desear morir

...entonces, ¿solo por querer ver?

no sabrás lo que verás
eres una hoja en blanco
y no se trata de no pensar
o de meditar
sino de que puedas fluir
emoción.
no sentimiento
emoción.
ejemplo
imagina
que miras al horizonte
y te caes lentamente
no pienses porque
no hay ego
ni razón
activas la emoción
a veces el ego y la razon empujan la emoción
y la encierran
o la limitan
pero no la dejan libre
trato de explicar algo que no habia explicado
inténtalo
deja que brote la emoción
sin razón ni ego.

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